Father's Love

Seharusnya saat ini aku sedang duduk di dalam kelas, mengikuti training guru-guru baru. Namun karena terinfeksi virus, aku harus beristirahat total, setidaknya selama 3 hari. Dokter melarangku bepergian ke mana-mana karena bisa menular.

Sekitar 12-17 tahun yang lalu, setiap tahun pada hari ayah, aku akan menyanyikan sebuah lagu pada kebaktian umum. Sementara aku menyanyi solo, teman-teman sekolah minggu yang lain akan berjalan ke arah bangku-bangku jemaat sambil membagikan sebuah souvenir untuk para ayah. Setiap kali aku akan menyanyikan sebuah lagu berjudul "PAPA". Tidak diketahui siapa pencipta lagu ini. Yang pasti nadanya sangat oriental. Syairnya sebagai berikut: Tak pernah ku lupa Kasihmu padaku Papa Dalam kelelahan bekerja Kau tetap bri senyum padaku Jerih payahmu Papa Semua hanya untukku Oh, terima kasih Papa

Kalo diinget-inget lagi saat-saat pertama ketika Papa meninggal, ada banyak hal-hal kecil yang luar biasa Tuhan kerjakan. Terbukti Tuhan kita itu setia, tidak ada perkara yang terlalu kecil untuk Dia.

I'm sorry for your lost... Air mataku tidak bisa tidak mengalir saat menyadari betapa Tuhan juga turut merasakan dukaku kehilangan seorang Papa. Aku bersyukur Alkitab mencatat bahwa Yesus menangis dengan sedihnya saat Lazarus meninggal dunia. Jadi kita bisa yakin dan percaya bahwa Tuhan sungguh-sungguh merasakan duka yang kita rasakan.

Tuesday, May 28, 2013. I supposed to be excited because on May 31, 2013 I would be commissioned as a Christian teacher. My family and relatives would come, but someone is missing. My dad would not be able to see me graduated and commissioned. Family photo would be weird because he already passed away. So what is the meaning of my graduation?

Few years ago, my dad preached a short sermon in a family cell. I found the note of his sermon in his bible. It was about "free from worry". Worry had been his struggle of life since my father was an introvert, melancholic person. The doctor said, one factor that dropped his health was depression, stress because of many things he worried about. Therefore, a virus could easily attacked his body and made him palsied, that we thought as stroke. As I remember him and read his note, my heart is full with joy, knowing that in my father's weakness, God's power shown perfectly. All things that he worried before he passed away, God provided perfectly as he went to the Lord. My mom told me that since 2009, as we have been struggle with finance after the company bankrupt (which my dad was an employee there), my dad had been growing in his faith to the Lord. Of course, there were a lot of times when he worried about our future, but he learned to put his hope in the Lord. Durin...

Death often comes without any warning. I experienced it on Sunday night, April 28, 2013. Suddenly, I became fatherless. Suddenly I lost my father. There was no goodbye.